I haven't wanted to write about it here for a few reasons: 1) I didn't want Eddie to think that I've only thought of him as a bucket list item. That is obviously not the case. It just happens to be that while I was doing my thinking on our relationship, the idea of an actual bucket list also entered my head. 2) We haven't told everyone in our lives that we are no longer together. Our family and closest friends know, but we've kept the split on the DL. 3) While on paper I thought about this as a chance for me to be either engaged or single, in my heart I was ready to end the relationship - thus not giving it a real try to fix to see if we could work things out. 4) This isn't a happy thing to write about - and I like to be happy.
Eddie and I will continue to remain very close friends. He has moved out of our house and started renting a really cute apartment in a very fun Portland neighborhood. I feel that ending our relationship and moving forward is giving me a new outlook on Portland - it feels like a fun new city all over again. Though it's hard now, I truly believe this was the best decision to make. I can see us both being happier in the future this way.
I suppose that's really all there is to say about this. Thank you to everyone who has stood by my side the past few months to help me work this out. And thank you to everyone going forward who will continue to support me - to pick me up when I'm feeling down, to leave me alone when I need my space, to give me a hug when I need it...
Now to end with something a little lighter. I have made some progress on item #15 - listening to the top 30 best selling albums. Pink Floyd's The Wall clocks in at number 29 on this list - it's what I chose to listen to on repeat the day after breaking up with Eddie. It is a perfectly moody album that can take you on a great journey. I remember purchasing this album from Rasputin's (a used record store) in high school. I was a new driver and it was a rainy day - and I was so excited to have the freedom to take myself to the record store and get whatever I wanted. I drove around listening to this in the rain enjoying every second of it. It has been many years since I last sat down and listened to this in its entirety, but I still love it. I'm sure others will disagree, but I think this is a perfectly recorded album. There are so many moving parts between the vocals, the instruments, the background noises, etc... I have yet to listen to this with a great set of headphones, but I'm sure it would be incredible.
Depending on what's happening in my life, different songs from this album will stand out differently to me. That being said, the one clear winning track for me has been, and probably always will be, "Comfortably Numb." I just think it is so cool.
Now go give it a listen.
Oh yes. One of the albums coming up on the list is the Titanic motion picture soundtrack. If you happen to own this and are willing to let me borrow it, I would be very happy with you! I'm not too keen on shelling out $10 for it if I can avoid it...
And now because I don't have any photos to go with my bucket list blogs, here are a few recent photos to show you what I've been up to:
Birthday lunch with my coworkers :-)
Out for drinks with the winery gals
Dinner with the Sokol Blosser gals
